The Most Painful Part…
The pain that this belief brought up was indescribable and the tension grew as I continued to fight when God was asking me to surrender and I couldn't bring myself to do it.
I began to have to look at my belief about who God is… is he kind? Is he for me even in this? Where is he when I’m being crushed? Does he even see how much this is costing us emotionally, spiritually and financially?
Immanuel
I began to ask the question: If God is with me, then what is He doing right now that I can begin to keep my eyes on?
If God is with us, then what does he want to BE for me right now that he could not be at any other time?
And within those questions, God became real to me in depths I didn't even know I needed him.